Today was truly a very SAD day for me as I watched my former life become boxed up, and shipped off for what appears to be a new life. I couldn't help but become very emotional today as I watched the movers pack up and remove what had brought me so much joy. My mind filled with so many memories that were GREAT and MEANINGFUL. I looked over the terrace and reminisced where I had taught Kira how to ride her bike. I remembered all the Tierstein festivals my family had that were soooo much fun. I though about all the times my wife and I sat out on our padio and drank a beer or sipped on wine and just talked about how much we loved living here.
Now as I sit here, it resembles what I feel inside, and empty house with no joy. What once was, is no longer. I can only hope and pray that God will refill this empty tank of mine, and that he will soon replace my sadness with joy.
Today was a beautiful day as far as sun and temperature, but yet so sad and meaningless as I experience the last time I live here in this beautiful place.
Germany was truly a great experience and I wouldn't trade the joy I had with my family here for nothing, but I have to reflect a bit and wonder if it was a mistake. Only God knows the answer to that one.
I love my family, and wish it was still a family, but today begins what may very well be the next chapter in my life. God, I hope you will walk along side even closer than you did the last 12 years.
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